O IO AIAI PHEU
i am under the rock
that decodes all those deeds
the ones that got incinerated
in north carolina.
a natural chemical in my thoughts
causes the drawing of a line
between someone i love being murdered
and me eating meat.
why are people so mean?
i don’t understand the significance of electra.
it saddens me.
when a sci-fi movie makes me love,
i’m that way with guilty shivers.
sometimes i think i’ll never be able
to can my brain for the future.
today i said out loud to my friend
“i’m a broken philosopher that doesn’t work”.
i wish it had been me who bought this house with her.
heard a description of surgery on a paperthin
premature human’s organ,
how when you scrape the infection off a thing so young,
you remove part of that thing.
lines of my poems start occuring to me,
and it makes me feel like how i was
friends with mayakovsky in the other basement,
went to his party, watched him entertain that child,
and later, saw his blood sprint to one finger.
i was in a kitchen.
i steered a guy to the baked beans.
pieces of my memory
have floated past my feet and seemed
like a fish.