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I LIVE IN A DEFINITE CAPITAL

I LIVE IN A DEFINITE CAPITAL

today i scrolled down to 3525
the year
on my phone
while trying to talk about time
on the month level
with a person
who has been alive for about 7 years.

he tapped February 1, 3525
i said the date.
i said "it will be a sunday, if those still exist".
a teacher, planning, chortled
and turned from some
documentation
to smile at me.

the young person asked what was
happening on February 1, 3525.
i said "meditation. it's on repeat"
he said "who will be there?"
with his hyperbolically tiny voice.
i said "i don't know. i'll be
dust or a cloud".
you can see when a person who
hasn't developed delusions yet
understands.

i was a little sorry we'd scrolled through the
millenium and i'd been so flippant.
he was very quiet and because he smiled
i saw a delusion begin
when he said
"i dont want to die"
and then i was really sorry.